Long time no speak!
Welcome to 2015 although we are almost a month in (my bad haha life has been busy).
Its weird because I still have this nagging feeling when time changes so rapidly where I want to talk about it or think about how fast time is going, but I almost feel scared to do so in case it takes me down a dark and miserable route whereby I dwell on time and the meaning of it.
Of course I'm not saying that I completely blank it, but I can only handle thinking about it to the point where it puts me back in my place and almost "recharges" my outlook on life and what my purpose is (and of course the fact that time is flying waaay to quickly).
2015 insha'Allah will be the year where I figure out what I would like to do with my future. Its a difficult prospect, thinking about what will become of yourself once you leave routine, or start a new routine or even having to do the same routine again and again. I think the strangeness of it all begins when you feel as though you've just become used to a certain prospect, whether its starting university or moving to a new place, or even starting the new year - and before you know it its over and you have to change and get used to something else.
To be honest though, I don't think I adjust or look forward to change quiet as much as a lot of adventurous people. Obviously when a change actually happens it turns out to be for the best insha'Allah, but its that initial 'putting your foot out the door' so to speak that is the major point of intimidation.
Lets just make dua that everything goes as we plan and may Allah cover our sins in this life and the next. May He build for us houses in Jannah and make our tests that of which does not break us.
Hope everything is going well for you, Dear Reader.
Pictures taken on my way to Winter wonderland in December. |
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