Asalamualakum Warahmatullah,
Oh how I missed writing.
The amount of times I went to write something only to delete it and leave, have been too many.
I forget how this is a platform for me to express myself and not really a place to worry about who is reading.
Lately, I have dealing with a load of issues.
Ones that have made me realise who is really there for me and those who aren't.
Alhamdullilah.
This has also been a time where I have genuinely come to realise, not that I didn't before, but even more so, how my belief in Allah has helped me get through so much.
It is the idea that I am actually never alone. I don't need people to make me whole, I don't need people to keep me happy.
My happiness comes from doing the right thing. Not to say that always happens, but stressors come as a result of fighting over what action should be taken next.
Mufti Menk once said, "Remember that some of the closest people in your life aren't always the one's who love you most. You can't change them. Accept it & move on."
The truth in that statement is so profound and I only think you come to realise it in times of difficulty.
With regards to stress, one of the major factors for me personally is the fact that now I should be stressed about exams, but then I will find anything but exams to stress about instead, and for what?
The unnecessary agro is literally pointless.
As I already heard but didn't know, people in life come and go, and it's the process of realising who should stay and should leave that is the hard part. Everything else comes easy.
Things don't happen in a one way street, activity happens mutually. And it is only then, through those trials do you come to realise yourself and what is right.
I just have to keep reminding my self to just take things one step at a time, to breath, to realise its not that deep, to stay strong in the belief of tawwakul, and let everything pan out how its supposed to be.
Just one step at a time.
