Hello & Assalamualailum Warahmatullah,
As I head into a new chapter of my life, I feel more confused than ever before.
I find myself fluctuating in my feelings, in my moods, in my certainty and clarity, in my desire, in my outlook and in my motivation.
I look around and i am grateful for all my opportunities, and my situations, and know full well that others have it worse. Yet, i still find it difficult to move beyond this feeling of being stuck.
It feels like one foot is stuck in drying cement and i cant quiet pull it out.
I have begun to work through some of my deep rooted issues, with myself and with a therapist, and i was warned that usually people go down before they start going up.
I guess im stuck in the 'down' but it seems to be a very long 'down'.
Its as though all i wanted was to be prepared to start a new year, fresh, but the complete opposite is happening where the old is seeping in to the new.
Can we ever truly let go of the things that hurt us?
It's funny because our experiences make us who we are, and we take on situations that make us stronger, or at least allow us to grow.
Yet it all seems very lonely.
We know that people can relate, people can offer aid, people can listen and take on our information and descriptions of feelings.
But to truly implement empathy and feel how someone else may be feeling, can create a depth that not many are willing to enter.
How do we become effective without being affected?
I have yet to find out.
