Asalamualaykum Warahmatullah,
I know, i'm sorry
It has been a long time since i last posted a blog post.
I think I now understand the whole 'creative block' when you no longer know what to say.
I forgot what my blog was supposed to be about, and i guess it is about me and how I feel and my opinions and sharing them with those of you who read them.
It has been a hectic year, one that has passed so quickly.
So quickly that i can still remember the first day that this academic year began, thinking i wonder what it would be like to reach the end.
Now the end is here.
One thing I have come to realise is that i am really really really really really bad with change.
Change is probably my biggest obstacle.
I mean both small changes and big changes.
I dont like not knowing what is coming next, and being held in a limbo stage.
I thought i was sad or in this unsure mood because I wanted to be alone.
But its not that, its that i'm scared of what comes next. To some people that might be stupid, but for me its not.
As much as i crave relaxation, and to just lie about being lazy, i cannot do that if i don't have something to look for, or prepare myself for and that is scary.
I am worried that my independence will be taken from me, that small things that i would normally do like 'popping out' will be removed.
Little things that i didn't realise i was liberty with, will require permission.
Things to keep my sanity.
I don't know.
It's hard, especially as the people who think its minor will be the biggest influencers.
I don't know.
I just, don't know.
